Monday, December 29, 2008
I took this little video of Mari last night. I have to warn you - she doesn't "do" a lot. So unless you are close family or have a very high tolerance for dorky Mommy voices then don't feel obliged to watch it!
She is growing so fast - I can't believe it really. She tried to walk over to me the other day - well, her Daddy held her just above the ground and dragged her feet on the ground over to Mommy - does that count?
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
I want to say something rather mushy about my husband - which is OK because he never reads the blog unless I force him. When we were in Edmonton waiting to have Bronwyn, Wes asked me what I wanted for my birthday. I told him I just wanted the new Dixie Chicks CD.
I listened to this CD as I drove back and forth to the hospital visiting Bronwyn. When I hear those songs now I have almost an emotional reaction. I have a memory of a warm clear late August day as I drove across the low level bridge anxious about how Bronwyn would be doing that day. It is quite amazing how music brings the whole feeling back again.
Back to my point - there is a song on this CD - Easy Silence. At the time I felt like it described Wes and his role in my life to a T. I still feel the same way even now.
The chorus goes:
I come to find a refuge in the easy silence that you make for me. It's OK when there's nothing more to say to me. And the peaceful quiet you create for me. And the way you keep the world at bay for me.
Wes is quiet, I mean really quiet. But he is steady, really steady. This is likely why I married him. He is everything I am not. I can rely on him to do what he needs to do, to shoulder the weight of the family and to calm me down when needed. He rarely gets ruffled and even more rarely looses his temper.
He laughs big and loud - which surprises people! He enjoys his kids and finds immense joy in watching them.
God has blessed my life so richly through Wes - even if he is now 40!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Wes is out right now with Gavin helping Natasha and Max build a snow man. Yup it is actually snowman worthy snow - odd for Calgary - so we try to enjoy it when we can.
I am snug in side listening to Mari cry - yes I know Mari, I'll feed you right away.
We went out last night to Joan's in Airdrie for the festival of lights. They had fireworks which the kids loved. We also had a little train ride and hot chocolate. So a very nice night in all. Gavin said it was just like an adventure.
On Friday I had a very good laugh. Bronwyn was playing beside me while I was checking emails etc on the computer. She had a pencil and I heard her say in a stern voice. "Hey, hey - you time out." And she stuck the pencil by the corner of the desk. Ha. I found that funny.
Oh, hey the snow man is almost as tall as Wes. Good work gang!!
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
My dad's dad was in the Welsh Guards before the war and was among the first recalled into service during the war. He spent several years in a German prison war camp and was released before the war was over. He left a wife with two very small children during that time.
Dad's dad, my Granddad Watts was a very tall man, with pure white hair, who had a lovely Welsh accent. I remember sitting in their garden in Africa as a teenager and listening to him tell me stories of his youth and the war. He would sit there slowly smoking a cigar (he had to smoke them outside as Grandma didn't approve of the habit) and in his soft musical voice he'd walk me through parts of his world. It was amazing. I felt so blessed to have spent that time with him. I learned later that he told me stories that even my dad didn't know. I guess age had lessened the pain of the memories and he could retell them with greater ease.
My mom's dad was on the other side of the spectrum. He was short, stout and had an almost gruff yet powerful voice. He didn't serve in the war. He was willing to serve in a non-combative role, as he was appalled by Hitler and his directives. It was his religious beliefs that kept him from enlisting as a soldier. This was not an easy choice. He was harassed for this choice and yet his convictions kept him strong.
I remember sitting at the dining room table with Grandpa Bailey as he told stories of his youth. He was an amazing story teller. He didn't care if there was mustard on his chin or bread crumbs on his tie. He was engrossed in the story and so was his audience. He had large chubby fingers that he would cross together on the table or gesture to aid in the story. I spent a lot of time with my Grandparents when I was in University so I heard many of his stories - several times!
Do I think that one of my Grandfathers made a wiser choice than the other? No. I wouldn't make that judgment. What I do know is that I was immensely proud of both of them. They were both men of conviction, honestly and honour. They did what they believed was right even when the cost was personally very high. They were like this always - not just during the war.
They are to me the standard of manhood. I feel honoured to say they are my Grandpas.
Granddad Watts and Grandpa Bailey - I miss you both!
Friday, November 07, 2008
Gavin would normally be on his way to preschool but he has actually been pretty sick since Wednesday afternoon. When I got him home from school on Wednesday I could tell he really wasn't himself. By Thursday morning he had a bad fever and it has only today started to subside.
Bronwyn is also sick, a bad chest cough. Which is always a bit off-putting as her colour goes a bit off when she has a cold. Makes sense, her oxygen levels decrease so her colour goes off. But, we just keep an eye on her.
Mari is fine (thankfully) - and well awake now - that was short lived! So I am off.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
That isn't the only negative thing my kids have learned from me. They both frequently say - "Zip it!" Well, I guess they live what they learn.
I am at Mom and Dad's and just wanted to update and let you all know we are alive and well - just not connected to Internet thanks to Norton Antivirus.
As soon as I get that figured out I'll post some more pictures. Gavin is turning 4 tomorrow! Yowsers - a four year old. Bronwyn is doing great - they are booking her for her cardiac cath early in the new year. That is the first step in prepping for the third surgery - which will likely be in the spring. She is doing so great! Lately she has been our good sleeper - how odd is that.
Mari is doing well too - she is not, as we had hoped, our good sleeper. Right now she is just crying and screaming for her grandpa. I better go rescue him.
So - that is a very rushed (everything I do these days is rushed) update.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
We are also working at getting Bronwyn to say Mari. She decided even before the baby was born that her name would be Olla. We are trying to convince her that it isn't Olla but Mari. Wish us luck with that!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Sunday, October 05, 2008
Friday, October 03, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
So - take a guess - when is this baby coming? And is it going to be a girl or a boy? If I can think of a prize for the winner I'll do that - but right now my mind is blank.
For me right now the big issue is seeing that my existing kids make it through the next week. Wow am I short tempered right now!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
We continue to dwell in the land of dinasours - I am just hoping to make it through this phase - try as I might I really don't have a lot of interest in dinasours - but that doesn't stop me from trying to cook T-Rex noodles for supper (chicken in disguise). Of course, calling it T-Rex doesn't mean that Gavin believes me - he said to me - Mommy I know this is chicken. All right - nice try eh?
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Here is what we read (one per page) -
God said, "Don't be afraid. I am with you." Isaiah 43:5
"Give your worries to the Lord. He will take care of you." Psalm 55:22
God said, "You will come to me and pray to me. And I will listen to you." Jeremiah 29:12
"Don't be sad. The joy of the Lord will make you strong." Nehemiah 8:10
God said, "You are precious to me... and I love you." Isaiah 43:4
I would ask those of you who pray to pray now for this family. Pray for a miracle! Pray for healing. Pray for support. Pray for courage. Pray for peacefulness. Pray for no suffering. Just pray what you can pray. I beg you to be like King David who prayed for his child until there was no more hope. At this point, pray and pray until such time as there is no longer hope.
I don't know what more to say my heart is breaking as are the hearts of hundreds and likely thousands of others who want this to be so different for the Clarks.
It seems quite surreal to be carrying on our little lives here with the knowledge that such a great struggle is happening in the lives of others - it is all very sobering.